It Was All A Lie

I mentioned a short while back that, "They'll never know how much that hurt because they'll never really know what love was."

Today's song follows on from that somewhat with "It Was All A Lie" by Evanescence. I wonder if others are lying to themselves more than to us when they pretend... or are they truly that sinister?

Bind my limbs with fear (with fear)
choke me with tears (tears)
wont die for you
You've (you've) been here before (before)
and come back for more (more)
not this time

You will never be strong enough
you will never be good enough
you were never concieved in love
you will not rise above

Somebody tell me what made us all believe you
I should have known all along it was all a lie
(should have known it was all a lie)

Now, (now) I know the truth (truth)
I'm through fearing you (you)
I am free

You will never be strong enough
you will never be good enough
you were never concieved in love
you will not rise above

Somebody tell me what made us all believe you
I should have known all along it was all a lie
(I should have known it was all a lie)

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Somebody tell me what made us all believe you
I should have known all along it was all a lie

Somebody tell me what made us all believe you (I should have known it was all a lie)
should have known it was all a lie

I should have known it was all a lie.

How will you ever tell it was a lie if they believe it themselves?

Everybody's Fool

Found a line posted in Facebook this morning that brought me to a single thought. Who are we really fooling we we play a part, when we try to be that which we think is who we should really be? Ultimately the only person we may end up really fooling is ourselves. Sure others may end up buying the story, but does what they think truly matter?

"Everybody's Fool" by Evanescense tells the tale of the fool... who thinks they have everyone else fooled. I think this is aimed primarily at the self styled celebrities but really could go for anyone who's caught up in playing the part. Sadly those that are playing their part are often the last to realise that they're done and caught out. At the end of it all, "To thine own self be true" and all that.

perfect by nature
icons of self-indulgence
just what we all need
more lies about a world that

never was and never will be
have you no shame? Don't you see me?
you know you've got everybody fooled

look here she comes now
bow down and stare in wonder
oh how we love you
no flaws when you're pretending
but now i know she

never was and never will be
you don't know how you've betrayed me
and somehow you've got everybody fooled

without the mask where will you hide?
can't find yourself lost in your lie

i know the truth now
i know who you are
and i don't love you anymore

it never was and never will be
you don't know how you've betrayed me
and somehow you've got everybody fooled

it never was and never will be
you're not real and you can't save me
somehow now you're everybody's fool

Ever notice that the longer we spend trying to fool everyone else, the only one that ends up being fooled is really ourselves?

Freak On a Leash

Ever feel like things don't add up? Ever feel like something's holding you back (whether you want it to or not)?

"Freak on a Leash" by Korn, featuring Amy Lee of Evanescence is an interesting adaptation of quite a heavy song. This was played live on an MTV unplugged session if I'm not mistaken.

Not all that we lose can be seen. More often than not it is the scars that we can't show that take the longest to heal and are by far the most ugly.

Something takes a part of me
Something lost and never seen
Everytime I start to believe
Something's raped and taken from me... from me

Life's gotta always be messing with me.(You wanna see the light?)

Can't they chill and let me be free? (So do I)
Can't I take away all this pain. (You wanna see the light?)
I try to every night
All in vain... in vain.

Sometimes I cannot take this place
Sometimes it's my life I can't taste
Sometimes I cannot feel my face
You'll never see me fall from grace

Something takes a part of me.
You and I were meant to be.
A cheap...for me to lay.
Something takes a part of me.

Feeling like a freak on a leash. (You wanna see the light ?)
Feeling like I have no release. (So do I...)
How many times have I felt diseased? (You wanna see the light ?)
Nothing in my life is free... is free.

Sometimes I cannot take this place.
Sometimes it's my life I can't taste.
Sometimes I cannot feel my face.
You'll never see me fall from grace.

Something takes a part of me.
You and I were meant to be.
A cheap...for me to lay.
Something takes a part of me.

ooooooo oooooooo (Go!)

Something takes a part of me.
You and I were meant to be.
A cheap fuck for me to lay.
Something takes a part of me.
Part of me
Part of me
Part of me

Think I'm always going to be a freak, the real issue is trying to break from that leash. Take back that which has been taken.

My Immortal

Well, there are good days and bad days. I guess we're all going to have those "sorry for ourselves" days. I suppose it's only a bad thing if those outnumber the awesome days.

Todays song, "My Immortal" by Evanescence sums that up to some degree. I'm definitely tired and while all wounds take time to heal, some seem to take a lot longer. The real question I suppose is what kind of scars will remain.

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Because your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me
by your resonating light
But now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

Sometimes things just won't leave us alone no matter how many times we ask.

Bring Me To Life

I was lucky enough to spend the long weekend doing lots of NOTHING. Gotta love it when you can do that. I've been feeling far too flat for far too long. Some might say it's been a case of being sick and tired of being sick and tired. At any rate, I really do feel like I've managed to recharge my batteries.

Today's tune comes from Evanescence, ultimately their break out hit, "Bring Me To Life". Although I must confess, I've got the Yu-Gi-Oh mash up on my mind. One of the movies I spent my time watching over the weekend.

I like this one mostly because it's so very similar to "Embracing Space" by Regicide. Although in this case it's not so much insanity that you're trying to break free from but perhaps the shell that we put around ourselves leaving us hollow and empty. Could anything really be worse than the nothingness that we can become?

Sometimes we need just that breath of fresh air to breathe new life into something.

How can you see into my eyes like open doors?
Leading you down into my core where I've become so numb,
Without a soul (without)
My spirit sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it there and lead it back....home

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I Can't Wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
Bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
Before I come undone
(Save me)
Save me from the nothing I've become

Now that I know what I'm without
You can't just leave me
Breathe~ into me and make me real
Bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I Can't Wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
Bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
Before I come undone
(Save me)
Save me from the nothing I've become

(Bring me to life)
I've been living a lie,there's nothing inside
(Bring me to life)
Frozen inside without your touch,
Without your love,darling
Only you are the life, among the dead

All this time I can't believe I couldn't see
Kept in the dark but you were there in front of me

I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
Got to open my eyes to everything

Without a thought, without a voice, without a soul
Don't let me die here
There must be something more!
Bring me to life

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I Can't Wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
Bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
Before I come undone
(Save me)
Save me from the nothing I've become
(Bring me to life)

I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside!
(Bring me to life.)

Time to wake up...

Imaginary

Evanescence jumped to real fame with their hit track "Bring Me to Life" from the movie Daredevil.

I've always been a massive fan of the piano and simple vocals and Amy Lee does a fantastic job. This has to be one of the most beautiful tracks I've heard. Kinda takes me off to Neverland.

I linger in the doorway
Of alarm clocks screaming
Monsters calling my name
Let me stay
Where the wind will whisper to me
Where the raindrops as they're falling tell a story

In my fields of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me

Don't say I'm out of touch
With this rampant chaos - your reality
I know well what lies beyond my sleeping refuge
The nightmare I built my own world to escape

In my fields of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me

Swallowed up in the sound of my screaming
Cannot cease for the fear
Of silent nights
Oh how I long for the deep sleep dreaming
The goddess of imaginary light

In my fields of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me

Deep sleeping... That's what I imagine I'll be doing this weekend.