Coming Clean

Well I decided yesterday that I'm wiping out all of the issues from this year so far. I'm officially bringing awesome back!

Another one from Hilary Duff. "Coming Clean" is a real pick me up.

Let's go back
Back to the beginning
Back to when the earth, the sun, the stars all aligned

'Cause perfect didn't feel so perfect
Trying to fit a square into a circle
Was no life
I defy

Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean

I'm shedding
Shedding every color
Trying to find a pigment of truth
Beneath my skin

'Cause different
Doesn't feel so different
And going out is better
Then always staying in
Feel the wind

Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean

I'm coming clean
Let the rain fall
Let the rain fall
I'm coming...

Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean

Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean

Let's go back
Back to the beginning

I'm going to go back to a good point and will simply start again.

Rainy Days and Mondays

It's a Monday... nuff said.

Talkin' to myself and feeling old.
Sometimes I'd like to quit;
Nothing ever seems to fit;
Hangin' around, nothing to do but frown;
Rainy days and Mondays always get me down

What I've got they used to call the blues:
Nothin' is really wrong;
Feelin' like I don't belong;
Walkin' around, some kind of lonely clown;
Rainy days and Mondays always get me down

Funny, but it seems that I always wind up-a here with you;
Nice to know somebody loves me.
Funny, but it seems that it's the only thing to do:
Run and find the one who loves me.

What I feel is come and gone before:
No need to talk it out;
We know what it's all about.
Hangin' around, nothing to do but frown;
Rainy days and Mondays always get me down

Funny but it seems that it's the only thing to do,
Run and find the one who loves me

What I feel is come and gone before:
No need to talk it out;
We know what it's all about.
Hangin' around, nothing to do but frown;
Rainy days and Mondays always get me down

Hangin' around, nothing do to but frown;
Rainy days and Mondays always get me down

Today it is going to rain one way or another...

Believe

Every once in a while life just sucks and there is little you can really do about it. Today's tune goes out to my grandfather...

So after all these one night stands
You've ended up with heart in hand
A child alone
On your own
Retreating
Regretful for the things you're not
And all dreams you haven't got
Without a home
A heart of stone
Lies bleeding

And for all the roads you followed
And for all you did not find
And for all the things you had to leave behind

I am the way
I am the light
I am the dark inside the night
I hear your hopes
I feel your dreams
And in the dark
I hear your screams
Don't turn away
Just take my hand
And when you make your final stand
I'll be right there
I'll never leave
All I ask of you
Believe
Your childhood eyes were so intense
While bartering your innocence
For bits of string
Grown-up wings
You needed

But when you had to add them up
You found that they were not enough
To get you in
Pay for sins repeated

And for all the years you borrowed
And for all the tears you cried
And for all the fears you had to keep inside

I am the way
I am the light
I am the dark inside the night
I hear your hopes
I feel your dreams
And in the dark
I hear your screams
Don't turn away
Just take my hand
And when you make your final stand
I'll be right there
I'll never leave
And all I ask of you is
Believe

I never wanted to know
Never wanted to see
I wasted my time
Till time wasted me
Never wanted to go
Always wanted to stay
'Cause the person I am
Are the parts that I play
So I plot and I plan
Hope and I scheme
To the lure of a night
Filled with unfinished dreams
And I'm holding on tight
To a world gone astray
As they charge me for years
I can't pay

I am the way
I am the light
I am the dark inside the night
I hear your hopes
I feel your dreams
And in the dark
I hear your screams Don't turn away
Just take my hand
And when you make your final stand
I'll be right there
I'll never leave
And all I ask of you is
Believe

Believe

I'll be here, for as long as I need to be.

Paranoid

Feeling a little paranoid these days. But just because I'm paranoid, doesn't mean that they aren't out to get me.

Gotta love Ozzy. Still love his cameo in the movie "Little Nicky", oh the sweet victory that the angels send Ozzy of all people to save the earth from Satan himself. Although I generally prefer the Oz many on his own over Black Sabbath, there are few fans of either that don't recognise this as a defining track.

Finished with my woman 'cause she couldn't help me with my mind
People think I'm insane because I am frowning all the time
All day long I think of things but nothing seems to satisfy
Think I'll lose my mind if I don't find something to pacify
Can you help me, occupy my brain?
Oh yeah...

I need someone to show me the things in life that I can't find
I can't see the things that make true happiness, I must be blind
Make a joke and I will sigh and you will laugh and I will cry
Happiness I cannot feel and love to me is so unreal
And so as you hear these words telling you now of my state
I tell you to enjoy life I wish I could but it's too late

While they were going for a sombre mood and conclusion to this track, because that's what Sabbath did, I'm going to argue that it's never too late.

Stars

"Is it asking too much?" Now that is a very good question. While I don't think I'm alone in the thinking that occasionally I do think that there is nothing about me, that the lights are fading and the stage is really empty.

I love Lacuna Coil, Cristina Scabbia has to be one of the most talented vocalists I've heard in some time. While this is a cover of a Dubstar song, I can say that I love this particular track - "Stars".

Is it asking too much to be given time
To know these songs and to sing them
Is it asking too much of my vacant smile
And my laugh and lies that bring them

As the stars are going out
And this stage is full of nothing
And the friends have all but gone
For my life my god I'm singing

We'll take our hearts outside
Leave our lives behind
I'll watch the stars go out...

Is it asking too much of my favorite friends
To take this song for real
Is it asking too much of my partner's hands
To take this song for real

As the stars are going out
And this stage is full of nothing
And the friends have all but gone
For my life my god I'm singing

We'll take our hearts out side
Leave our lives behind
I'll watch the stars go out...

We'll take our hearts out side
Leave our lives behind
I'll watch the stars go out...

We'll take our hearts out side...
We'll take our hearts out side...

We'll take our hearts out side,
Leave our lives behind,
I'll watch the stars go out...

We'll take our hearts out side,
Leave our lives behind,
I'll watch the stars go out...

We'll take our hearts out side
Leave our lives behind
I'll watch the stars go out...
(leaving our lifes behind)

We'll take our hearts out side
Leave our lives behind
I'll watch the stars go out...
(leaving our lifes behind)

We'll take our hearts out side
Leave our lives behind
I'll watch the stars go out...
(leaving our lifes behind)

We'll take our hearts out side
Leave our lives behind
I'll watch the stars go out...
(leaving our lifes behind)

We'll take our hearts out side
Leave our lives behind
I'll watch the stars go out...

Well... guess I'll just have to start lighting the stars once again. One at a time.

Reflections

After watching Britney vs Christina this weekend on tv I was taken back a few years to the movie Mulan. I really enjoyed the movie (but then again I enjoy all Disney movies).

Christina really is a great singer when she's not wailing. But here is the them tune from the movie, Mulan - "Reflections"

Look at me
You may think you see who I really am
But you'll never know me
Everyday it's as if I play a part
Now I see
If I wear a mask I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart,

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside

I am now
In a world where I have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
Whats inside my heart
And be loved for who I am

Who is that girl I see
staring straight back at me
Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know

Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time

When will my reflection show
Who I am inside

There's a heart that must be free to fly
That burns with a need to know
The reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time

When will my reflection show
who I am inside

when will my reflection show
who I am inside (oooohhhh)

Never hide who you really are, you'd simply be robbing the world of who you could be.

Kickapoo

Well trying to keep it lighthearted for a Friday. It's always entertaining to see how many rock stars actually put in cameo appearances in movies. Dio and Meat Loaf both put in a good showing in the movie "the Pick of Destiny".

Loved the movie mostly because I can relate an awful lot - mostly on the sucking at being a muso bit. But hey, someones got to suck to make the others that much better!

Jack Black (Narrator)
A long ass fuckin' time ago,
In a town called Kickapoo,
There lived a humble family
Religious through and through.
But yea there was a black sheep,
And he knew just what to do.
His name was young J.B.
And he refused to step in-line.
A vision he did see of
Fucking rocking all the time.
He wrote a tasty jam
And all the planets did align.

Jack Black (Son)
Oh the dragon's balls were blazin'
As I stepped into his cave.
Then I sliced his fuckin' cockles,
With a long and shiny blade!
Twas I who fucked the dragon,
Fuckalizing fuckaloo!
And if you try to fuck with me,
Then I shall fuck you too!
Gotta get it on in the party zone!
I gots to shoot a load in the party zone!
Gotta lick a toad in a party zone!
Gotta suck a chode in the party zone!

Meat Loaf (Father)
You've disobeyed my orders son,
Why were you ever born?
Your brother's ten times better than you,
Jesus loves him more.
This music that you play for us
Comes from the depths of hell.
Rock and roll's the devil's work,
He wants you to rebel.
You'll become a mindless puppet;
Beelzebub will pull the strings!
Your heart will lose direction,
And chaos it will bring.
You'd better shut your mouth,
You better watch your tone!
You're grounded for a week with no telephone!
Don't let me hear you cry,
Don't let me hear you moan!
You gotta praise The Lord when you're in my home!

Jack Black (Son)
Dio can you hear me?
I am lost and so alone...
I'm askin' for your guidance,
Won't you come down from your throne?
I need a tight compadre
Who will teach me how to rock.
My Father thinks you're evil,
But man, he can suck a cock.
Rock is not the devil's work,
It's magical and rad.
I'll never rock as long as I am
Stuck here with my Dad...

Ronnie James Dio (Dio poster)
I hear you brave young Jables,
You are hungry for the rock.
But to learn the ancient method,
Sacred doors you must unlock.
Escape your father's clutches,
On this oppressive neighborhood.
On a journey you must go,
To find the land of Hollywood!
In The City of Fallen Angels,
Where the ocean meets the sand,
You will form a strong alliance,
And the world's most awesome band!
To find your fame and fortune,
Through the valley you must walk.
You will face your inner demons.
Now go my son and rock!

Jack Black (Narrator)
So he bailed from fuckin' Kickapoo
With hunger in his heart.
And he journeyed far and wide
To find the secrets of his art.
But in the end he knew
That he would find his counterpart.
Rooooock!
Rah-ha-ha-ha-hock.
Raye-yayayayaye-yock.

So lets go... and rock!