Happy in the Meantime

Today's tune is another that while carries a rather sombre tune just makes me happy.

"Happy in the Meantime" by Lit just hammers home the point of being happy in the meantime, what ever the reasons. I guess sometimes you have to just settle with what you have, have another drink and just be happy.

It's just another reason why
It all comes down to you and I
Just have another drink
Waste some time with me
We're happy in the meantime

I've gotta make up for losin' time
Cuz I've been spinnin' my wheels all night
And I can't wait
Can't hardly wait to see you
Things seem better off now
I think I'm better off now

It's just another reason why
It all comes down to you and I
Let's have another drink
Waste some time with me
We're happy in the meantime

I guess the rain's gonna follow me
Cuz it's been droppin' in minor D.
And I can't wait
Can't hardly wait to see if
Things are better off now
I think I'm better off now

It's just another reason why
It all comes down to you and I
Let's have another drink
Waste some time with me
We're happy in the meantime

We're happy in the meantime

Well save a little rain
And wash away the pain
I'll try and keep it clean
I'll show you what I mean
I don't wanna keep you holdin' on
Cuz in the morning I'll be gone
So long

It's just another reason why
It all comes down to you and I
Let's have another drink
Waste some time with me
We're happy in the meantime

It's just another reason why
It all comes down to you and I
Let's have another drink
Waste some time with me
We're happy in the meantime

We're happy in the meantime
We're happy in the meantime
We're happy in the meantime

Regardless, we need to remain happy if only for the meantime.

You're My Best Friend

"You're My Best Friend" by Queen has to be one of my favourite pick me up tunes. While it carries a weight of sadness too.

This even gets a play at the end of one of my all time favorite movies, Shaun of the Dead

Ooh you make me live
Whatever this world can give to me
It's you you're all I see
Ooo you make me live now honey
Ooo you make me live

Ooh you're the best friend that I ever had
I've been with you such a long time
You're my sunshine and I want you to know
That my feelings are true
I really love you
Oh you're my best friend

Ooo you make me live

Ooh I've been wandering round
But I still come back to you
In rain or shine
You've stood by me, girl
I'm happy, happy at home
You're my best friend

Ooo you make me live
Whenever this world is cruel to me
I got you to help me forgive
Ooo you make me live now honey
Ooo you make me live

You're the first one
When things turn out bad
You know I'll never be lonely
You're my only one
And I love the things
I really love the things that you do
You're my best friend

Ooo you make me live

I'm happy at home
You're my best friend
Oh ya
Oh you're my best friend
Ooo you make me live
You you're my best friend.

My sunshine and a light.

Low

It's Friday (Friday, gotta get down on Friday...) and officially Beerday here at the office. So as with the average Friday (and every Beerday) lets keep this one relatively light hearted.

"Low" from the Foo Fighters does tackle what seems to be a more serious issue. How long do you simply stick with lover or meet up with them out of habit more than anything else. How empty can that be or low do you really go?

The music video on the other hand is a whole other story. Words just can't quite explain it! Warning however, your life may be changed forever!

Hey you
Are you in there
I'm stuck outside you, ooh

We could use
One another
Another like you, ooh

You be my passerby
I'll be your one to pass through
Screws inside
Turn so tight
Turning on you
I'm hanging on you, ooh

Me and you
Going nowhere
I'm right beside you, ooh

Me and you
Going nowhere
I'm right beside you, ooh

You be my passerby
I'll be your one to pass through
Screws inside
Turn so tight
Turning on you
I'm hanging on you

Taking you as low as you go
As low as you go
Taking you as low as you go
As low as you go

Ooh, ooh, ooh

You be my passerby
I'll be your one to pass through
Screws inside
Turn so tight
Turning on you
I'm hanging on you

Taking you as low as you go
(Low as you go)
As low as you go
(Low as you go)
Taking you as low as you go
(Low as you go)
As low as you go
(Low as you go)

As low as you go
Low as you go

Ooh, ooh

Taking you as low as you go
As low as you go
Taking you as low as you go
As low as you go

Taking you as low as you go
(Low as you go)
As low as you go
(Low as you go)
Taking you as low as you go
(Low as you go)
As low as you go
(Low as you go)

As low as you can go, I know how to DIG!!

We Will Rock You

It's rather chilly this morning and guess I'm looking for something to pick up the pace a little. Today's tune might just be THE rock anthem of all time.

"We Will Rock You" by Queen is simply a classic. So as a pick me up this morning, we'll just rock the day away!

Buddy you're a boy make a big noise

Playin' in the street gonna be a big man some day
You got mud on your face
You big disgrace
Kickin' your can all over the place
Sing it!

We will we will rock you
We will we will rock you

Buddy you're a young man hard man
Shoutin' in the street gonna take on the world some day
You got blood on your face
You big disgrace
Wavin' your banner all over the place

We will we will rock you
Sing it!
We will we will rock you

Buddy you're an old man poor man
Pleadin' with your eyes gonna make you some peace some day
You got mud on your face
Big disgrace-
Somebody better put you back into your place

We will we will rock you
Sing it
We will we will rock you
Everybody
We will we will rock you
We will we will rock you
Alright

It's time to rock!!

Coming Clean

I've posted this one before but as it's bucketing down and I don't expect to see much more rain with winter on it's way, here we go again.

"Coming Clean" by Hilary Duff is one of my more feel good songs.

So let the rain fall, let it wash away the last shreds of sanity.

Let's go back
Back to the beginning
Back to when the earth, the sun, the stars all aligned

'Cause perfect didn't feel so perfect
Trying to fit a square into a circle
Was no life
I defy

Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean

I'm shedding
Shedding every color
Trying to find a pigment of truth
Beneath my skin

'Cause different
Doesn't feel so different
And going out is better
Then always staying in
Feel the wind

Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean

I'm coming clean
Let the rain fall
Let the rain fall
I'm coming...

Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean

Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean

Let's go back
Back to the beginning

While it lasts, let the rain fall... let it wash everything clean.

One should not worry so much about fitting a square into a circle so much as fitting a circle into a square. It'll go but it's filled with way too much emptiness.

Hammering in my Head

Ever think the voices in your head just make too much noise?

"Hammering in my Head" by Garbage seems to tell the tale of playing a clear, calm individual while behind the mask all hell is breaking lose. How often do we do that? How often do we simply play to the crowd just do drown out the noise?

Do we really fear the hammering in our heads?

I'm stressed but you're freestyle
I'm overworked but I'm undersexed
I must be made of concrete
I sign my name across your chest

Give out the same old answers
I trot them out for the relatives
Company tried and tested
I use the ones that I love the best

Like an animal you're moving over me
Like an animal you're moving over me

When did I get perverted
I can't remember your name
I'm growing introverted
You touch my hand and it's not the same

This was so unexpected
I never thought I'd get caught
Play boomerang with your demons
Shoot to kill and you'll pop them off
BANG! BANG!

Like an animal you're moving over me
Like an animal you're moving over me

You should be sleeping my love
Tell me what you're dreaming of (all 4x)

I knew you were mine for the taking
I knew you were mine for the taking
I knew you were mine for the taking
When I walked in the room

I knew you were mine for the taking
I knew you were mine for the taking
Your eyes light up
When I walk in the room

A hammering in my head don't stop
From the bullet train
From Tokyo to Los Angeles
I'm leaving you behind
A flash in the pan
A storm in a teacup
A needle in a haystack
A prize for the winning
A dead for the raising
A catch for the chasing
A jewel for the choosing
A man for the making in this blistering heat

Sweat it all out
Sweat it all out
With your bedroom eyes and your baby pouts
Sweat it all out
In our electric storms and our shifting sands
Our candy jars and our sticky hands

Sweat it all out
Sweat it all out
Sweat it all out
Sweat it all out
Sweat it all out
Sweat it all out

Don't forget what I wrote you then
And don't forget what I told you then
And don't forget I that meant to win
And don't forget your ventolin
So a hammering in my head don't stop
In the bullet train from Tokyo to Los Angeles

Sometimes it's our own voices that make the most noise. Perhaps... it's easier than dealing with the silence?

Paradise

Well, the weekend has come and gone and alas... the Rapture did not take place.

Today's tune is a tribute to paradise and quite simply titled "Paradise". This was written by Lynn Anderson but the version I know best is by Hayseed Dixie.

How often do we wish for paradise and in doing so simply overlook what we already have, then in years to come we simply look back and wonder where it went. If only we had realised just what we really had.

When I was a child my family would travel
Down to western Kentucky where my parents were born
And there's a backwards old town that's often remembered
So many times that my mem'ries are worn.

And daddy won't you take me back to Muglenberg County
Down by the Green River where paradise lay
Well, I'm sorry my child but you're too late in askin'
Mr. Peabody's coal train has hauled it away.

Well, sometimes we traveled right down the Green River
By the abandoned old prison down by Adrie Hill
Where the air smelled like snakes and we'd shoot with the pistols
But empty pop bottles was all we would kill.

And daddy won't you take me back to Muglenberg County
Down by the Green River where paradise lay
Well, I'm sorry my child but you're too late in askin'
Mr. Peabody's coal train has hauled it away.

Then the coal company came with the world's largest shovels
They tortured the timber and they stripped all the land
Well they dug for the coal till the land was forsaken
Then we wrote it all down as the progress of man.

And daddy won't you take me back to Muglenberg County
Down by the Green River where paradise lay
Well, I'm sorry my child but you're too late in askin'
Mr. Peabody's coal train has hauled it away.

Mr. Peabody's coal train has hauled it away...

Take in the paradise that you have today, for tomorrow it could have been taken away.

Dreams to Dream

Today's tune, "Dreams to Dream" comes from "An American Tale 2". Performed by Linda Ronstadt this is one that kinda just breaks your heart the first time you hear it.

Ultimately it's a feel good movie (then again aren't all animation movies feel good?) that makes some fantastic observations through out. Following dreams, be it to be a performer or a cowboy. After all, one mans sunset is another mans dawn.

I lose my way, no one cares.
The words I say, no one hears.
My life it seems
Is a world of dreams.

Deep in the night, you'll find me.
Dream and you're right behind me.
Stay if you will stay
We'll dream the night away.

Dreams to dream in the dark of the night
When the world goes wrong, I can still make it right
I can see so far in my dreams
I'll follow my dreams
Until they come true.

There is a star waiting to guide us
Shining inside us when we close our eyes!
Come with me, you will see what I mean,
There's a world inside no one else ever sees.
You will go so far in my dreams,
Somewhere in my dreams,
Your dreams will come true.

Don’t let go, if you stay close to me
In my dreams tonight, you will see what I see
Dreams to dream, as near as can be
Inside you and me, that always come true,
Inside you and me, that always come true.

Keep following your dreams until they come true.

Last Resort

Found myself pondering this classic on my way into work this morning. Think it was the waning moon that made me think of the movie "The One" where Jet Li ends up fighting on top of a pyramid with the moon as a backdrop. Don't ask me how I reach these associations.

While rather serious a song, this when done by Richard Cheese (the lounge singer) is a lot more amusing and lighthearted than the original by Papa Roach.

"Last Resort" seems to be quite a drastic call on spiraling depression and compounded difficulties of life. Sometimes I guess we just need to hear someone tell us that everything will be okay? But ultimately I was just chuckling on my way in. Unless you've heard the Richard Cheese version you're not likely to quite get it.

Cut my life into pieces
I've reached my last resort, suffocation, no breathing
Don't give a fuck if I cut my arms bleeding
Do you even care if I die bleeding
Would it be wrong, would it be right
If I took my life tonight, chance are that I might
Mutilation out of sight and I'm contemplating suicide
Cause I'm losing my sight, losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Nothing's alright, nothing is fine
I'm running and I'm crying
I never realized I was spread too thin
Till it was too late and I was empty within
Hungry, feeding on chaos and living in sin
Downward spiral, where do I begin
It all started when I lost my mother
No love for myself and no love for another
Searching to find a love upon a higher level
Finding nothing but questions and devils
Cause I'm losing my sight, losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Nothing's alright, nothing is fine
I'm running and I'm crying
I can't go on living this way

I might have lost my mind a long time ago, but think I'm still some way from a last resort.

Sweet Sixteen

"I'm like... OMG... No Billy!!!"

This is an absolute shocker, I've not added any Billy Idol so far. Now anyone who has a vague understanding of my tastes, I like good... and the cheesy. For the most part Billy qualifies as good but super cheesy. No matter what I hear of his it makes me smile, reminding me of days long gone.

"Sweet Sixteen" tells the tale of Coral Castle but also the tale of things forever cast in stone. Somethings do last forever, but not as we intended.

I'll do anything
For my sweet sixteen,
And I'll do anything
For little run away child
Gave my heart an engagement ring,
She took ev'rything,
Ev'rything I gave her,
Oh sweet sixteen
Built a moon
For a rocking chair,
I never guessed it would
Rock her far from here
Oh, oh, oh.
Someone's built a candy castle
For my sweet sixteen
Someone's built a candy brain
And filled it in.
Well I'll do anything
For my sweet sixteen
Oh I'll do anything
For little runaway child
Well, memories may burn you,
Memories grow older as people can
They just get colder
Like sweet sixteen
I see it's clear
Baby, that you are
All through here
Oh, oh, oh, oh.
Someone's built a candy castle
For my sweet sixteen
Someone's built a candy house
To house her in.
Someone's built a candy castle
For my sweet sixteen
Someone's built a candy brain
And filled it in.
And I do anything
For my sweet sixteen
Oh, I do anything
For run away girl.
Yeah, sad and lonely and blue.
Yeah, gettin' over you.
How, how do you think it feels
Yeah to get up in the morning, get over you.
Up in the morning, get over you.
Wipe away the tears, get over you, get over, get over...
My sweet sixteen,
Oh runaway child
Oh sweet sixteen
Little runaway girl.
Gave my heart an engagement ring,
She left everything,
Everything I gave her,
Oh sweet sixteen
Built a moon
For a rocking chair,
I never guessed it would
Rock her far from here
Oh, oh, oh, oh.
Someone's built a candy castle
For my sweet sixteen
Someone's built a candy house
And house her in.
Someone's built a candy castle
For my sweet sixteen
Someone's built a candy house
And house her in.
And I'll do anything
For my sweet sixteen
Oh, I'll do anything
For little runaway child
Do anything
For my sweet sixteen
I'll do anything
For little runaway girl
Little runaway girl
Oh sweet sixteen
Oh sweet sixteen
Oh

But sweet sixteen or not, forever set in stone isn't always a good thing.

Tonight Tonight

Met up with a few friends for drinks yesterday and left Robyn with this piece of advice, "Life is too short to not do stupid things, don't waste any more time." I figured she needs to just take a plunge of sorts.

After a couple of hours chatting music with Janine brought be back to the Smashing Pumpkins. Today's tune, "Tonight Tonight" has a single line that pretty much sums up everything I'd hoped to say, "You can never ever leave, without leaving a piece of youth."

No matter what we do or where we go we'll always end up leaving a piece of ourselves, a piece of that person we once were right there. Be sure to make it worth it!

Time is never time at all
You can never ever leave, without leaving a piece of youth
And our lives are forever changed
We will never be the same
The more you change the less you feel

Believe, believe in me, believe, believe!
That life can change, that you're not stuck in vain
We’re not the same, we're different.
Tonight, tonight, tonight
So bright
Tonight, tonight

And you know you're never sure
But you're sure you could be right
If you held yourself up to the light
And the embers never fade, in your city by the lake
The place where you were born

Believe, believe in me, believe, believe!
In the resolute urgency of now
And if you believe there's not a chance tonight
Tonight, tonight, tonight
So bright tonight, tonight!

We’ll crucify the insincere tonight (Tonight)
We’ll make things right, we'll feel it all tonight (Tonight)
We’ll find a way to offer up the night (Tonight)
The indescribable moments of your life (Tonight)
The impossible is possible tonight (Tonight)
Believe in me as I believe in you,
Tonight, tonight, tonight,
Tonight
Tonight…

Today, tonight make it happen sooner rather than later.

Fuckin' Perfect

Once in a while (possibly more often than just a while) I get all self indulgent and stuff. Today's mostly a tribute to self.

"Fuckin' Perfect" by Pink beat out Lady Gaga's "Born This Way". Mostly I guess it's all about a certain "I'm Awesome Pill" that we all need to take time and again. As mentioned before, we've got to remain true to our selves if nothing else. If we get that right, if nothing else, at least we are perfectly ourselves.

Made a wrong turn, once or twice,
Dug my way out, blood and fire,
Bad decisions, thats alright,
Welcome to my, silly life.

Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood,
Miss, no it is all good,
It didn't slow me down.
Mistaken, always second guessing,
Under-estimated, look I'm still around.

Pretty, pretty please, dont you ever, ever feel,
Like you're less than fuckin' perfect,
Pretty ,pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing, you're fuckin' perfect to me.

You're so mean (You're so mean), when you talk (when you talk)
About yourself, you were wrong,
Change the voices (change the voices) in your head (in your head),
Make them like you instead,

So complicated, look how we all make it,
Filled with so much hatred,
Such a tired game.
Its enough, I've done all i can think of,
Chased down all my demons,
Lets see you do the same,
(ohh ohhhh)

Pretty, pretty please, dont you ever, ever feel,
Like you're less than fuckin' perfect,
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel,
Like you're nothing, you're fuckin' perfect, to me.

The whole worlds scared, so I swallow the fear,
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer,
So cool in line, and we try, try, try, but we try too hard,
Its a waste of my time,
Done looking for the critics, cos' they're everywhere,
They dont like my jeans, they dont get my hair,
Estrange our selves and we do it all the time,
Why do we do that?, why do I do that?,
(why do I do that?)

(Yeaaaaah)
(Ohhhh)
(Oh pretty, pretty plee-ohhhh)

Pretty, pretty please, dont you ever, ever feel,
Like you're less than fuckin' perfect,
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel,
Like you're nothing, you're fuckin' perfect to me,
(Yeaaah)
(you're perfect, your perfect)
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel,
Like you're nothing, you're fuckin' perfect to me.

We're all pretty perfect in our own way.

Wishlist

After reading Jodene's wishlist yesterday I was immediately reminded of the Pearl Jam song "Wishlist".

So many wishes, but I think that there are quite a few on this list I really wish I could. But if even Pinocchio learnt that if you wish, sometimes it does come true. Of course he was wishing on a star... where your dreams do come true.

I wish I was a neutron bomb, for once I could go off.
I wish I was a sacrifice but somehow still lived on.
I wish I was a sentimental ornament you hung on
The christmas tree, I wish I was the star that went on top,
I wish I was the evidence
I wish I was the sun for fifty million hands upraised, and opened toward the sky.

I wish I was a sailor with someone who waited for me.
I wish I was as fortunate, as fortunate as me.
I wish I was a messenger, and all the news was good.
I wish I was the full moon shining off a camaro's hood.

I wish I was an alien, at home behind the sun,
I wish I was the souvenir you kept your house key on.
I wish I was the pedal break that you depended on.
I wish I was the verb "to trust", and never let you down.

I wish I was a radio song, the one that you could turned up,
I wish, I wish, I wish, I wish,
I guess it never stops.

Imagine always having good news? But mostly I guess I'm just thankful to be as fortunate as me.

Complicated

Sometimes I think we all tend to make things all far too complicated. Sometimes we just need to simply chill out and take things a little easier. Simply keep it real?

"Complicated" by Avril Lavigne simply begs the question of another to be real. To chill out and just be who you are, because that's the best person you can be.

I guess Polonius really was quite on the mark:
"This above all: to thine own self be true,
And it must follow, as the night the day,
Thou canst not then be false to any man."

Uh huh, life's like this
Uh huh, uh huh, that's the way it is
Cause life's like this
Uh huh, uh huh that's the way it is

Chill out whatcha yelling' for?
Laid back it's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
you will see
I like you the way you are
When we're drivin' in your car
and you're talking to me one on one but you've become

Somebody else round everyone else
You're watching your back like you can't relax
You're tryin' to be cool you look like a fool to me
Tell me

Why do you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
And you fall and you crawl and you break
and you take what you get and you turn it into honesty
and promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it
no no no

You come over unannounced
dressed up like you're somethin' else
where you are ain't where it's at you see
you're making me
laugh out when you strike your pose
take off all your preppy clothes
you know you're not fooling anyone
when you've become

Somebody else round everyone else
Watching your back, like you can't relax
Trying to be cool you look like a fool to me
Tell me

Why do you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
and You fall and you crawl and you break
and you take what you get and you turn it into
honesty
promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it
no no no

Chill out whatcha yelling for?
Lay back, it's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
You will see

Somebody else round everyone else
You're watching your back, like you can't relax
You're trying to be cool, you look like a fool to me
Tell me

Why do you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
and you fall and you crawl and you break
and you take what you get and you turn it into
honesty
promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it
no no no

Why do you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like your somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
You fall and you crawl and you break
and you take what you get and you turn it into honesty
promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it
no no no

Avoid complications, don't fake it. Keep true.

Angel

It's a Monday, so I'm a little slow this morning so we're going to keep it gentle.

"Angel" by Sarah McLachlan might not be the perfect start to a week, but kinda fits in with the slowness and possibly the additional feeling of wanting to be whisked away.

While this song seems to reference death (hence being taken by angels) I see it more as an end. An end to anything, a place or situation. Sometimes you need to just be taken away. Remember that not all angels have wings... some can be quite a bit smaller.

Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always some reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh a beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
oh and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of the angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

So tired of the straight life
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lies
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe
in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of the angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

What ever the reason and wherever you are, comfort is always just an embrace away.

In the Arms of Sleep

Another night of failed sleep. I've never really been one to sleep all that well so I guess it shouldn't bother me as much. Think I'll start freaking out properly when I start seeing little bald doctors.

Todays tune is another one from The Smashing Pumpkins, "In the Arms of Sleep". In this case I'm seeing Sleep itself as being call upon much like one might call upon an ex-lover.

Sleep and me haven't seen much of each other of late...

sleep will not come to this tired body now
peace will not come to this lonely heart
there are some things i'll live without
but i want you to know that i need you right now
i need you tonite
i steal a kiss from her sleeping shadow moves
cause i'll always miss her wherever she goes
and i'll always need her more than she could ever need me
i need someone to ease my mind
but sometimes a someone is so hard to find
and i'll do anything to keep her here tonite
and i'll say anything to make her feel alright
and i'll be anything to keep her here tonite
cause i want you to stay, with me
i need you tonite
she comes to me like an angel out of time
as i play the part of a saint on my knees
there are some things i'll live without
but i want you to know that i need you right now
suffer my desire
suffer my desire
suffer my desire for you

I need you right now.

Appels + Oranjes

Ever find yourself wondering, "What if?" What if everything was different, what if everything was something new?

Today's tune, Appels + Oranjes by The Smashing Pumkins pretty much poses one question after the other... or is it a case of making a statement?

What if the sun refused to shine?
What if the clouds refused to rain?
What if the wind refused to blow?
What if the seas refused to wave?
What if the world refused its turn?
What if the stars would hesitate?

What if, what is isn't true?
What are you going to do?
What if, what is isn't you?
Does that mean you've got to lose?
Digging for the feel of something new

What if the silence let you dream?
What if the air could let you breathe?
What if the words would bring you here?
What if this sound could bring you peace?

What if, what is isn't true?
What are you going to do?
Digging for the feel of something new
What if, what is isn't you?
What are you going to do?

It came from your thoughts, your dreams and visions.
Ripped up from your weeks and indecisions

What if the sun refused to shine?
What if the clouds refused to rain?
What if the world refused to turn?
What if the clocks would hesitate?

What if, what is isn't true?
What are you going to do?
What if, what is isn't you?
Does that mean you've got to lose?
Digging for the feel of something new

Does that mean you've got to choose?
The feel of something new
Does that mean you've got to lose?
The thoughts you cannot use
What are you gonna do?

What if everything we thought to be true wasn't?

Home

On my way into work this morning (hey David, I still don't have my MP3 player installed!!), I was suddenly caught in a moment of thought. What is a home, is it bricks and slate? Tin and glass? Not really was my conclusion... sure those could be a house but not always a home.

Today's tune, "Home" by the Goo Goo Dolls kinda covers that sentiment. Home really is where the heart is. How often do we find ourselves in those crowded rooms with people that seem to just be passing time? The emptiness?

Crowded rooms full of empty faces
Our deepest conversation full of lies
Another night with all my friends
The kind you'll never see again
I wonder if they'll see through my disguise

And I want to say
That I can't hold back
And it might be wrong
But it's all I have

Come take me home tonight
Come take me home
Oh I need you now
I'm lost without you
A million miles but I will find you
So take me home

It's 3 A.M. and I can't sleep without you
I think I've found the perfect words to say
The shattered light transmits my voice
Sometimes we don't have a choice
I'd wake you up from half a world away

And I tried so hard
Tried to be so strong
But you see the crash
My defense is gone

Come take me home tonight
Come take me home
Oh I need you now
I'm lost without you
A million miles but I will find you

Come take me home tonight
Come take me home
Oh, come take me home tonight
Come take me home

Come take me home
The shattered light transmits my voice
Sometimes we don't have a choice
Come take me home
Wake you up from half a world away
Oh I need you now
I'm lost without you
I'm holding on till I can find you
So take me home

Home... it's not really a place. But reckon by now I'm about half way through my million miles?

Run

For some bizarre reason I've got a Snow Patrol song stuck in my head. Stranger yet is that it's the Leona Lewis version of "Run".

I guess the line, "I know we'll make it anywhere away from here" sums up a lot of where I once was. Anywhere else was a better, safer place to be. But in the end, possibly just running away from myself?

While this particular song was no doubt written with more than a single person involved, sometimes I guess we need to just talk to ourselves and carry ourselves over certain hurdles. Guess that's why every witch or wizard always had a familiar... an extension of themselves. That other part that makes us who we are.

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

I guess when you're running into the dark a little light always helps. Be that light...